“But right now I love you too much to be able to see a clear decision. I’m choking too hard on trying to breathe without you. I’d rather suffocate from lonliness than go blind from one sided adoration.”
I told myself after the last heartbreak six years ago, I told myself after I followed myself out for the next five years, and now I’m telling myself again, as I come home for the fourth night in a row smelling like you with your finger prints burned into my skin, but a different look in your eye than is in mine, that I’d never again love someone who didn’t love me back, id never put myself through it, not again, and yet here I sit, counting down minutes until I see him next.
Been feeling very at peace this past week, after feeling so I’ll at ease the past couple months. It’s been very refreshing and for the first time in a long time I’m liking who I am.
I am GONNA make a bad choice and GO fuck my ex boyfriend tonight because I AM sad and want some human contact and am SELF DESTRUCTIVE but NO ONE can stop me
me: *watches criminal minds for 9 hours*
anything: *makes a noise*
me: I’m looking for a white male between the ages of 25-45 probably a loner probably most definitely hates women probably drives a red late model dodge truck probably lives alone his moms name is Helen and his favorite color skittles are the red ones
